July 31, 2020

rant as an adult

I'm here again now, as an adult physically, mentally & emotionally. 

but guess what?
I still am the same inside... everything is just tiring. to keep on moving. 
tonight, I'm in front of my laptop finding myself getting lost in my thoughts. 

this is tiring. 
it's suffocating. 
I'm still drowning. 
i wanna drink. so i could indulge myself in my lost world. 

a night like this.
there goes a river of tears. 
it streams unshyly. 
for hours it owns the eyes and face. 

this is too tiring. 
I don't seem to see myself moving.
there are just things that keep me pausing. 
not moving.
in life.
and myself. 

this is so damn tiring. 
I wanna hike. 
so high that I forget I wasn't supposed to go on. 
as I don't wish myself the best. 

it's fucking tiring. 
I'm at my lowest. 
I don't find comforts in anyone else. 
he'll be frowning trying to understand.
wander my thoughts and unspeakable my words. 


March 5, 2016

gone through hell for peace's sake



it's okay

let alone the people, if they wanna leave. 
why do you have to struggle? just let them be.
start to let yourselve untangle, for you to be happy.
not to stay, not to stay, not to stay.